Welcome. Dear Friend. I am opening this blog with some reflections on possibility as I see this topic playing up in my life, and certainly in the lives of many of the people around me. This is my way of reaching out to you so that we might get to know each other.
The picture you see above this post shows me on Tenerife. It was taken just a few weeks after my mother had died. I knew she would. I was blessed to be able to be with her the last 6 months of her life. And we healed many wounds together. But was I prepared for the day she actually left? Hell, no. Her death hit me in a way I could not have imagined. Utter emptiness I faced. I had moved to a new town to be with her. Nothing fixed yet. Life had predominantly turned around her. And now this was done. Over.
Everything wide open. Nothing to rub against. No necessities. A constant flow, no beginning, no end. Pure potentiality. Just like the ocean. How to meet that vastness without belittling it?
Maybe start with a very personal question: Can I relate to the unknown in myself? Have I ever considered that there is something I do not know about yourself? .
This something is nothing we can learn like we’ve learned so many other things in our lives. And no one else can tell us, either. There is nothing to improve or to change. There is no one technique for it, no power practice, no yoga pose, no single meditation. All of this helps tremendously, yes. It creates a field of resonance, a quality of awareness which might bring you to the very point of asking - without despair, frustration or even hope. Just honestly sitting with yourself. Who am I? And why am I here?
We are living in times of radical change. I guess you would agree with this - however this plays up in your life and whatever your perspective on the times we’re living in.
Some things just do not work anymore. And they cannot be fixed by thinking harder and doing more. Do we fully understand what is happening? I am not sure, really. And I would say it is not important. Because what essentially is changing is our relationship to what cannot be known. More precisely: We are asked to establish a relationship with the mystery that life is. And this relationship impacts all other relationships.
I do not know where you stand with this. I know that I have been doing some soul searching lately throwing overboard all answers I had carefully crafted to give life meaning and purpose. And I know I am not the only one. Mistaken identity is a “mental health issue” many of us have in common. Anxiety, depression, burn-out or chronic illnesses are just different symptoms of this underlying dis-ease. The practice of emptying ourselves is the cure.
Beware though, there is no final destination to be reached here. Emptying ourselves is an ongoing act of deeply engaging with life. And we can do that by asking: Who am I? Why am I here? - again and again.
In fact, living in the question allows true relation. Because the very act defies definitions, solutions and ready made answers. It creates a radical opening in which we can meet ourselves, life and each other.
That moment when the potentiality of life full force met the potentiality in me. It was a scary moment. Because what was asked of me was a quantum leap in consciousness. Could I in total openness receive all of life? True possibility is an unconditional encounter. If we start feeling comfortable in this place. We start co-creating with life. We are all people of the earth. Let’s meet in the presence of this moment.